Do you ever look at people and their relationship with God and wish it was you? I know I have. I've seen people before so crazy-on-fire for God and in that moment I want that so bad. The thing is: It is mine for the taking.
Sometimes we idolize things and are hungry for them but don't want to put in the work. I don't know about you but I don't want a husband or wife that doesn't want to put in the work in our relationship and is too lazy to pursue me. It's the very same with God.
God longs for us to come talk to Him, to spend time in His presence, to hear us sing to Him and for us to listen to Him. Yes, He loves to love on us and give us our heart's desires, but it's a two-way relationship.
Maybe, you are trying for the wrong reason. We are called to honor God by reading His word and living it out but sometimes we can lack the very fuel for this. And the fuel is love.
Just like it talks about in 1 Corinthians 13, we can do all these great acts, but if we don't have love then they were all in vein. This is in exact correlation with our relationship with the Father. We have to acquire a love for Him that grows and grows and grows. It is because I love Father God so much that I sing praises to Him. It is because I love Him that I go to church and worship Him. I'll be honest, sometimes I'm down-right tired and I don't go to church but it's because I'm madly in love with Him and want to be in a corporate setting that I go.
Maybe you are where you want to be or maybe you're not satisfied at all with your relationship. I'm definitely not where I want to be. The key is consistency and not giving up.
Next time you see someone who is crazy-in-love with Jesus, instead of wishing and hoping and becoming jealous, ask God for desire and go after it yourself. Don't live off someone else's revelation. It won't get you very far.
Go after His heart for yourself, and do it not because you are just told to do so but that His love lives within you.
But when we do what pleases God, we can expect unfading glory, true honor, and a continual peace" Romans 2:10