Have you ever felt like there was a wall between you and God? Almost, as if something blocked your relationship with Him that you really wanted. I have. In fact, there was a time when I was consistently growing in God but I was frustrated because I still felt like there was so much more He had for me and somehow I couldn’t reach it. My prayers turned into pleas and begging. And then came this dream that changed everything.
I had went in to get a massage at a local spa and I drifted off to sleep as I usually do but this time it was different. God spoke to me in a dream right there on that massage bed. I saw myself sitting on God’s lap as I so often do when I close my eyes in worship but this time was different. This time, I could hear what me and God were talking about. As I came and sat in His lap, Father God asked me what was it that I wanted in such a genuine way. My reply, “to go deeper in you.” That really was and had been my heart cry for those past couple of months. He responded to my cry in the most bold yet sweetest way saying, “ What are you waiting for?!” He took me by the hand and showed me this place where there were endless fruit trees. The fruit represented all the things of the Kingdom and he spoke these words to me: “What’s mine is yours.”
Mic drop. Something so simple yet profound that broke that barrier down between us. All that time I had felt something blocking me from what He had for me when it was just a lie that I had believed; that I had to ask God like a stranger for everything. When all along, He had already given me full access to everything He has because He is that good of a Father. You know when you go to your parents house and you’re hungry, you don’t just tip toe around and ask for everything or even wait for them to ask you. You are so comfortable and established with them that you open the fridge and get whatever you want. It’s already understood that you can have anything you see.
That is the very nature of God.
His heart for us is the very definition of a Father and the model of family. When we acknowledge and understand who He wants to be to us and how He wants to do life with us, everything changes right then and there.
“If you, imperfect as you are, know how to lovingly take care of your children and give them what’s best, how much more ready is your heavenly Father to give wonderful gifts to those who ask him?” Matthew 7:11
He wants to do every day life with you. From the time you wake up to in the middle of the night when you dream. He longs for such a deep, intimate relationship with you. And even more than that, He wants you to know who He is because when you really no someone then you are able to think and act like them.
That dream represented then and now breakthrough. It erases all the misconceptions I had about who a Father was and established what my Heavenly Father wants our relationship to mirror. And out of that dream birthed a song. A song that allowed me to process that I don’t have to wait for God to come to me for things. He has given me complete and total freedom as His daughter to access anything that is His. Below are the lyrics to the song and here is a link to listen.
Today marks Good Friday: The day that Jesus made the decision to endure everything we ever would so that we could experience every part of who He is. That veil of separation was torn so that you can have intimacy and freedom instead.
And now we are brothers and sisters in God’s family because of the blood of Jesus, and he welcomes us to come right into the most holy sanctuary in the heavenly realm—boldly and with no hesitation. For he has dedicated a new,life-giving way for us to approach God. For just as the veil was torn in two, Jesus’ body was torn open to give us free and fresh access to him! Hebrews 10:19-20